tired

Psalm 142:3a, "When my spirit grows faint within me, it is You who know my way..." 

My mom noted a while ago that my cousin and I who are both named after our godly grandmother (we use to tease that she had a direct line to God) have had some serious trials in our lives...her moreso than me as she lost a child which no person should ever have to do 😢  Some backstory here, my mom is not a believer so this was all said through that lens.  She said something along the lines that we are "very religious" (yuck) and we have had hard burdens to bear.  She doesn't understand why people who are "very religious" have to suffer...and she especially doesn't understand why people continue to praise and worship God in the midst of it.  

It is hard to explain sometimes that it is especially in those times...when your own spirit is weak that you lean into God.  He not only knows your way, He strengthens, He comforts, He is there in the middle of it grieving right along beside you.

He helps you find your way.  As David fled from Saul and was living in a cave, he felt he had no other human that was there for him, that he could he depend on.  So he cried out to the One who never abandons and could lead him in his time of desperation.  People will disappoint, the world FOR SURE does, God never disappoints.  He leads you in those times in the way that leads to life, not in ways that might lead to destruction or more suffering.

I'm not a one man island.  I cannot do it on my own; nor do I really want to. When I get tired and weak it is God I go to first.  He provides.   He is Jehovah Jireh.