word vomit

Psalm 39:1, "I said, 'I will watch my ways and keep my tongue from sin; I will put a muzzle on my mouth as long as the wicked are in my presence.'"

My mouth is a big source of trouble.  In my 51 years, I am still learning to tame it...or better yet to be silent.  It is unclear here what sin David is being chastised for, but he is choosing to be silent in the moment.  Later, when David does speak, he vents his frustrations to God.  I love that!  #goals

I need to learn to hold my tongue.  I have a Holy and loving Father that will help me work through my anger, frustrations and issues.  I am a slow processor by nature.  When giving advice, those who know me give me time to process and wait to hear what God has to say.  I don't know where the disconnect is, but in times of anger and frustration, I forget to TAKE THE TIME to process and a little word vomit escapes my mouth and can do way more damage than good.  It damages my earthly relationships, but more importantly it damages my intimacy with God and my testimony for Him.  I am incongruent.  I say I love Jesus more than anything and yet the words of my mouth do not reflect that I even know Him sometimes.  Oh, Lord help me....muzzle my mouth until I come talk to You first.  Keep my tongue from sin.  I cannot do it on my own and need You to help me.